Peace Please

It is so so so easy to get caught up in myself. I hate that. With a passion. I was reminded to the full extent of that when I read this today... http://livingproofministries.blogspot.com/2008/10/there-is-rescuer.html

My heart just breaks for all of those that will continue to grieve the loss of not only loved ones, their possessions, but also the life they knew.

Do you ever make a decision and for some reason have this 'feeling' that you just can't shake? That's the case for me here lately. Logically, it seems like the best thing to do. However, it isn't until later that you realize it was a lack of peace and of the HOLY SPIRIT! I praise Jesus for those things that I can't just shake. At the time it's weird and confusing but in hind site it's a blessing and protection. The past few weeks have been a time of trial and decision making for me. You know, the kind where you just want to close your eyes and pretend you are a kid again so you don't have to make grown up decisions and deal with grown ups? Ok, I'll just speak for myself, but that was (is) me. Or, just curl up into a ball and disappear? OR just drive off and not tell anyone where you were going? Ok. You get my point. (All passed through my mind many times)

I don't know what in the world I would do with out my family and friends who allow me to be crazy. I mean it. I've been pretty crazy here lately...either not wanting anything to do with anyone or talking at 100mph barely stopping to even consider if what I'm saying is making any sense or is understandable from any one else's perspective outside of my head. Total unconditional love. Undeserved and desperately needed.

Peace--I've got it now. If I may use the phrase...A weight has been lifted off of my shoulders. Thank you sweet, sweet Jesus...I can breathe. Finally.

This is really vague and really random. I'm too tired to make any sense right now, anyway. Good enough for now!